I'm a mama who likes to wear Patchouli. How's that for simple. What is Patchouli? It's that "dirty hippie" smell you used to come across at a Grateful Dead concert or maybe at the airport when you passed the Hare Krishna. It's a scent that has come to symbolize freedom to me, in every sense of the word. It's an oil that I wear to express myself, but I reserve it for Freedom Fridays. ***AS OF OCTOBER 2012, I WILL NO LONGER UPDATE THIS BLOG***
About Me
- trayceetee
- I grew up in Small Town, Nebraska, feeling sheltered by the 'safety' of it all. When I moved to Big City, Nebraska, I felt like the world was my oyster. However, I soon felt like there was much more for me Out There... I moved to Chicago, thinking I was done with this 'little' state. It took living in a true big city to realize that Lincoln is just an oversized small town... and it's where I belong! I'm blessed to have a wonderful husband who understands me and all my oddities. My kids are young enough to still think I'm cool. Beyond that, who cares, right?
Sunday, December 09, 2007
Self Portrait ... Sunday
Here's the thing--my Mom said she enjoys reading updates on the kids and the family and my day-to-day life, but what she really looks forward to on my Blog is my actual "writing"... things I put down that are meant to either be me venting or something that's going to inspire you, Dear Reader, to think about whatever I have to say. Well, I don't know if I'm going to get anything so grand written down tonight, but I do mean to get on here and NOT do an update on family.
My cousin, Bridget, used to do weekly posts called "SPT", which I correctly guessed to stand for Self Portrait Tuesday. (Wasn't so hard to figure out after reading her blog a few weeks in a row, noticing that the first one was an actual physical picture of her, and the next two or three were very introspective.) I liked the idea, but have not ever really rolled with it myself. I think she was getting topic suggestions from someone else (I could research that a little further, but that'll be for another entry, if at all). Anyway, here's one I've kind of been thinking of for a while:
Several entries ago, I posted 100 Things About Jim (nice, mushy stuff about Jim) and I got great feedback on it! Before that, I'd posted My 100 Things (just general things about me). I was thinking I should post what I don't like/would change about myself. However, I felt that listing 100 of those things (though not necessarily hard to come up with!) would seem very self-deprecating. So I decided that coming up with ten would be both gentler to my self-esteem and easier on you, Dear Reader.
10 Things About Me That I Would Change
1. I would be more motivated, in general. I have a tendency to want to stay home, do as little as possible, nap frequently, not strive hard to accomplish anything. I could probably be classified as an underachiever.
2. I would listen more, rather than waiting for my turn to talk. Quite often, in little e-mail surveys, I list--as one of the things I dislike about myself--that I interrupt people. Along with that, even when I don't interrupt, I'll find that I'm just waiting my turn to speak, to insert my own little tidbit or anecdote, whether it's necessary or not. I wish I was better at simply listening to people speak and absorbing what they have to say.
3. I would lose weight. I know, the key is to eat healthfully, exercise, and be happy with who I am. But I'm being honest here--I'm happier when I'm thinner. Problem is, I've been quite a bit heavier than I'd like to be for enough time now that I worry my body is used to being this size. (Rationalize, rationalize, rationalize, right?) A big part of my problem is that, for YEARS, eating has been an emotional thing for me. Y'know the saying, "Some people eat to live, some people live to eat." I'm in the latter group. Exercising and eating well are definitely things I'm working on, but I'd like to be thinner, too. Plain and simple.
4. I would be less guarded. I know that sounds strange, considering I'm sitting here, opening myself up on a Blog for all to see. But I truly believe that I hold things back from people. I let them tell me all they want about what's going on in their lives (and seriously, I sometimes feel like I've got the word "shrink" tattooed on my forehead!), yet I rarely tell more than surface stuff about myself. I don't know why I'm like that. It's not like I have these major, dark secrets. I just don't always feel comfortable opening myself up to most people.
5. I would have a better balance of patience and loving firmness with my children. Sometimes, I feel like I can't say "no" to them ever. Yes, you can have a snack. Yes, I'll buy you a "treat-treat". Yes, you can watch TV. Blah, blah, blah. But then I feel like I fly off the handle over the tiniest little infractions. I feel almost mortally wounded when I "slave" over some new meal and nobody wants to eat it. I yell, I beg, I plead, I threaten, and nobody will eat it. Then I get super mad and start enforcing major punishments.... but I'M a picky eater--wouldn't you think I'd be more understanding when my kids don't like something? Things like that... I wish I was more patient, yet more consistent when enforcing rules.
6. I would have gotten a teacher's certificate when I was in college. How dumb was I? Majoring in English, but not going into Education? There was no law that said I'd HAVE to teach, but at least I could have put my degree to some use if I ever decided that I WANTED to!!! (But no-o-o-o, I was going to be "a writer". Wonderful.... How much have I written so far, ever? Nada! Zip! Zilch!) I realized about five years out of college that I would have maybe enjoyed teaching kids at the high school level, but by then it would've cost kind of a lot and taken another two years just to get a teacher's certificate. Dang-it!
7. I would have made more of the time I had in Chicago. Don't get me wrong--I had a great time when I was living there, and I feel like I benefited a lot from the experience. I saw a lot of cool stuff, I had a lot of wonderful visits from friends and family, I did things I would've never been able to do in Nebraska. But my whole reason for going--for joining VISTA--was to help others. I was put in a position where a VISTA volunteer was actually not needed. So rather than ask to transfer to a position where I could be helpful and useful, I just coasted. Sure, I did a few things at the counseling center I was assigned to, but it was mostly stuff like babysitting, re-vamping the resource library within the facility, attending meetings that I had really no business going to, and doing a bit of public speaking. I also watched a lot of movies when the boss was out and the other counselors were free, I wrote a lot of letters (this was before e-mail), I read a lot (well, I don't regret that--much of my reading was done on my commute), and I even took naps at work now and then. Neat. Real impressive. Why didn't I ask to be relocated so I could actually HELP somebody?
8. I would have stuck with band during my last year in high school, so that I could have tried out for the UNL marching band. I said that my reason for quitting was because the marching band didn't have clarinets and I hated playing alto sax (clarinets were added to the marching band, I believe during my sophomore year, but it could've been when I was a freshman), but the real reason I quit was because the new high school band teacher and I DID NOT get along. I should have sucked it up and continued on. If I didn't join the marching band, maybe I could have been in the symphony or something. I really miss playing now and I was really quite good, if I do say so myself.
9. I wouldn't have spent so much money on shoes. I know that sounds silly, but I didn't ever realize that a person's feet grow during/after pregnancy. Maybe it doesn't happen to all women, I don't know. But my feet grew after Lindsay was born--they grew a whole size! I had to get rid of over 30 pairs of shoes, and I was VERY into those shoes. I mean, I didn't spend $400 on Manolo Blahniks or anything, but still, I LOVED my shoes. Giving up that many shoes was painful!
10. I would have picked the right numbers on the Powerball when the jackpot was in the $300 million range. Tee! Hee! I'm mostly kidding. Obviously, we never have that kind of knowledge ahead of time. And what do I need with millions and millions of dollars? It would probably ruin me to have that much money. But it sure is fun to dream about, don't you agree?
Well, that's all I can come up with, luckily. I suppose I should have said I'd list nine things, but I enjoy putting that fluff one at the end.
By the way, I see that Bridget is still doing SPT... if you clicked on the link to her Blog (above) you'd see that too. Thanks, Bridget, for once again being my inspiration!
Until next time,
xoxo
tt
Friday, November 09, 2007
Candy Suicide
I've got to make a change. I had placed all of the girls' candy into a gallon Ziploc bag (which it filled, even after a week of all of us--minus Donovan--snarking away at it every chance we get), with the intention of hiding it somewhere, so it's out of my sight. The girls can still eat it, I just don't want it sitting out anymore. However, I did have to pull out a few pieces that I know the girls won't eat: Twizzlers, Butterfingers, Snickers, Baby Ruths, etc. Those, I hid in a different spot. And I ask myself, why? I mean, it's not like I won't know where THOSE are! Why bother hiding them? In fact, why don't I just eat them right now? In FACT, why don't I just eat it ALL right now! Just open the hatch and dump ALL of the candy in, barely take time to even chew it. Eat all of the stuff in one sitting, so that I get so completely sick, barf my guts out, and then I'll never want to touch a single piece of candy again. It's the perfect plan! Of course, I may die doing it, but is Candy Suicide such a bad way to go?
Monday, October 29, 2007
Pumpkin Run
Josie is almost catching up to Lindsay already in the reading department. She reads everything she can get her hands on, provided the words aren't longer than four letters! It's especially nice when she reads Donovan's board books to him, like "Baby, Come to Church" and "How Do Dinasaours Clean Their Rooms?" We just got done with Fall Break, and Josie was lucky enough to have TWO playdates with her friend Olivia! She's a great friend! We also decorated pumpkins, did our annual Boo at the Zoo, and went to Vala's Pumpkin Patch, near Omaha.
Lindsay & Josie with their Jack-o-Lanterns
At the Pumpkin Patch--the girls love these faceless frame things!
Donovan, my 10-month-old boy (can you believe he's that old already?) is now walking, as of last week -- when he was still only 9-months-old. It's a Tibbels Family Record! (At least, for THIS Tibbels family!) He's got four teeth showing through very well, and there are about three or four more trying to poke through. I weaned him to formula about two months ago, which was great for both of us! He weaned himself off the pacifier not long after, as it bothered his sore gums. (Great--one less task for Mommy and Daddy!) Aside from walking all over the house and chewing on everything, our latest challenge is dealing with severe diaper rash. Josie had problems with it when she was a baby, and we discovered it was because she could only handle a certain brand of diapers. I'm thinking that's the same problem with D--so far, it seems to be better if we stick with Pampers Cruisers (no Luvs, no Huggies, no Pampers Baby Dry, NO Target brand, which is what started the whole problem!). Like Josie's way back then, Aquaphor won't clear it up. Neither will Desitin, Arbonne's Diaper Rash Cream, or even the all-powerful Boudreaux's Butt Paste (which we all love simply for the name). Actually, the latter three are all zinc-oxide based, and Aquaphor and Eucerin are both petrolium jelly based. The only thing I've found to work is scorched or fried flour. It worked on Josie, and it's slowly working on the boy, as well. (Baking soda baths, and then letting him air dry for a while, helps.)
Goin' commando!
Little vampire
Other than that, we're just gearing up for Halloween, then looking forward to Thanksgiving, our niece's wedding, Christmas, Donovan's 1st birthday, etc., etc. Hope this autumn is going well for you all and that it's just as beautiful where you are as it is here for us!
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Game Face
Lindsay is standing, 2nd from left.
Josie's sitting, far right.
Monday, August 27, 2007
First Day of School
New Hairdo's
Here are a couple of pictures, in the last days of summer, with the girls in their long hair. They're both sporting some new outfits, as well. While they couldn't wait for school to begin, they were more excited about chopping off their long hair and going "short". I made an appointment with my hairdresser of about fifteen years, Wendy. The girls have gone with me several times when I've gotten my own hair done--Wendy's salon is in her house. So the girls got ready.....
...and off we went to their first hair appointment....
The result..... Simply STUNNING!!!
Thanks, Wendy! You did a great job, as always!!!
Monday, August 13, 2007
You WIENER!!!
I'm just getting ready to try weaning Donovan from breastmilk to formula. I honestly don't remember having problems doing that with Lindsay, and it was actually a good thing for both Josie and me (we made the switch when she was five weeks old--breastfeeding didn't go well with her). However, I've gone much longer with Donovan, so I'm a little nervous that he's going to resist it.
It just seems to be the right time for me, though. We're going to Canada in about a month, and I think it'll be easier to have him on formula. I know--logically, you'd think it'd make more sense to keep him on breastmilk, since I have that with me wherever I go. But D has become a very, um, sensitive eater. He's very particular about his surroundings when he nurses. If the setting isn't exactly perfect--quiet, comfortable positioning, zero distractions--he gets fussy, doesn't stay latched on, cries and squirms, and ultimately, he bites. I really don't want to mess with any of that (especially being bitten) on an airplane, so I'm hoping to get him to take a bottle with ease before that. Plus, I've got a few physical reasons why it'd be a good time to wean him from breastmilk.
I'm not ready to wean him 100%, and he's not ready for that either. But I am thinking about that "wiener" comment a lot anyway. It helps me make light of the situation when I start getting stressed out. Thanks, Mary!
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
The Pope-a... he's a-so nice-a!
I clicked on the link and tried to read the article. To be honest, I found it somewhat cryptic. So I asked Jim what he thought, and he agreed that it's not the best written article ever... it's not very clear.
This morning, I got up bright and early to do my usual daily workout, and I spent an hour researching this article and formulating an answer, instead. Here's what I wrote back to my friend:
Wow--you really gave me some food for thought!
1.) The article you linked me to is a bit confusing... it was poorly written, in my opinion (and hubby's--I asked him for feedback, to see if it was just me having a hard time with it, and he agreed). I mean, it's hard to understand, from this particular article, what exactly is being talked about. What did the Pope actually say? What's the actual point of the article? I did a little research to see if I could find more info on what was being discussed, but in a little more clear language. Here's a link to what I found:
http://www.signonsandiego.com/news/world/20070710-1255-pope-otherchristians.html
And I like the language of this article even better--I feel it's even more clear: http://www.catholic.org/international/international_story.php?id=24660
2.) You asked me if I "believe what the Pope is saying here", and what my "take" on it is. I guess I'm assuming you mean, do I agree with the Pope? (You said, since I'm "still Catholic".) Based off of my understanding of the articles I've read (the one you sent me and the ones I've linked above), then yes, I agree with the main point of discussion: I agree that the Catholic Church is the "one, true Church". Obviously, it's not THE ONLY Church out there; rather, it is the one church founded by Jesus Christ himself. To my knowledge (based largely off of my Catholic school education), other churches basically split away from the Catholic Church and its exact teachings when they (the newly split churches) came up with teachings (or perhaps practices) they preferred. Yet the Catholic Church remains the "one, true Church" in that it is (and always will be) the ONLY church Jesus himself founded, directly through St. Peter. Any other Christian Church was founded by someone, years later, who was not an apostle of Christ, living and breathing during Christ's time, following Jesus' direct instructions. Know what I mean?
3.) I feel it's important to note that there is clarification in all three articles (it's best explained in the 2nd link I've added, I believe) that the Pope is not saying other churches aren't valid. The word "ecumenical" is thrown around a lot, and I'm embarrassed to say, I had to look it up. I wasn't sure what it meant (actually, I didn't know at all what it meant). Here's what I found:
ecumenical
1. general; universal.
2. pertaining to the whole Christian church.
3. promoting or fostering Christian unity throughout the world.
4. of or pertaining to a movement (ecumenical movement), esp. among Protestant groups since the 1800s, aimed at achieving universal Christian unity and church union through international interdenominational organizations that cooperate on matters of mutual concern.
5. interreligious or interdenominational: an ecumenical marriage.
6. including or containing a mixture of diverse elements or styles; mixed: an ecumenical meal of German, Italian, and Chinese dishes.
Ecumenical, then, as I understand it, means trying to be inclusive of all Christian churches.
The Pope was basically clarifying, in his statement yesterday, that while the other Christian churches out there are valid and are viable means for attaining salvation, there is only one Catholic (i.e. established by Christ himself) Church. So while "ecumenical dialogue remains one of the priorities of the Catholic Church" (i.e. the Catholic Church wants to be on the same page as other Christian churches, basically), such dialogue must be founded on "not just mutual openness of the participants but also fidelity to the identity of the Catholic faith" (i.e. we've got to recognize that Catholicism was the only religion/church actually founded by Christ himself).
4.) I do agree with this and believe this all to be true--I agree that the Catholic Church is the one, true Church, in that it is the only one founded by Christ. However, I agree, as well, that members of other Christian faiths may still obtain salvation. It seemed, when I was growing up, that there was a misunderstanding about this, and most of my childhood priests taught that only Catholics would get into Heaven--the articles above clarify that the Pope is debunking that idea... however, I do feel that he's implying that, while non-Catholics can get into Heaven, their best path would be through the Catholic Church, since that was the Church founded by Christ--after all, who would have a better idea of how to get there? And we know that the Pope is infallible in matters of the Church, so his teaching or directives with regards to the Church must be true and accurate.
5.) What do YOU believe? What is YOUR take? You make it clear to me that you're not "still Catholic" and I believe your MySpace said something about you being "Christian - other". Does that mean you've switched to some Protestant church? (Presbyterian? Lutheran? Methodist?) Or have you been "Born Again"? Let me know where you are with all this--I'm intrigued. The only other friend of mine who has left the Catholic Church, but remains Christian, considers herself "born again". (I think, for her, she's got an even stronger Faith than she did as a Catholic.)
Anyone out there reading this, I'd be interested in what you have to say. I haven't gotten my response back, yet, from Jill. I would love to know what any of you think, as well. I am definitely no expert, and I'm basically just regurgitating back what I've read online, with my own opinions thrown in for good measure. Still, it's fun to hear other people's opinions... Either leave me a post or e-mail me. Thanks! -tt
p.s. I want to clarify that the MSNBC article omitted part of the statement that was made, thereby making the Pope sound as if he's completely excluding other Churches. Please be sure to read all three of the articles I've linked, as the verbage is a bit different in each. Also, as Jim pointed out (and as each article states, I believe) this statement by the Pope is basically just clarifying what was stated in Vatican II forty years ago--he didn't just all of a sudden come up with this stuff yesterday, or even back in June. Rather, he's clarifying a point that was made years ago. Again, I welcome any comments--this is interesting to me! :) -t
Monday, July 09, 2007
Addendum to Concert List
Interesting side note: Take a look at "Aldo Nova". Drop the first two letters of his name and add the letter 'n', and you've got MY SON'S name! Isn't it amazing that I forgot about this concert? I mean, seriously--Donovan is on my mind all the time--you'd think Aldo Nova would've been the first concert I'd have remembered! Sheesh! :)
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Turn Around, Bright Eyes
Another, similar memory, also involves Columbus, strangely enough. I told Jim the other day, as we heard the tail end of "Stranglehold" by Ted Nugent on the radio, that the song reminds me of one trip we made to Columbus, for my family's bi-annual (is that the right word? every other year?) family reunion. After that reunion, we were going to continue on to Norfolk, where we'd spend the rest of the weekend at Jim's folks' house. The fun (I use that word lightly) thing was, Jim was DJ'ing at the time (weddings, mostly), and he'd agreed to do a wedding for some friends of his family. So, in order to do the dance, he had to bring all the stereo equipment, speakers, lights, crates of CD's, etc., in his little Mazda 323 all the way from Lincoln. The car was about as big as a bathtub, so that meant he had to pack the stuff in part of the way, then have me get into the front seat, then pack the rest of the stuff around me. I'd gone to a few dances of his in Lincoln that way, and it was just kind of funny. (I imagine it was even funnier for someone on the "outside" to see me climbing out of that car after he'd partially unpacked it.) But for the two hour ride from Lincoln to Columbus for this family reunion (the last weekend of July was when they always have it, and Jim's car either didn't have AC, or it didn't work very well), it was not particularly comfortable. We spent a few hours in Columbus, outside in the heat at that park by the river, then he packed me back into the car with the stereo equipment, etc., and we went the rest of the way to Norfolk. We heard "Stranglehold" on the way to Columbus--I think it was on a tape Jim had made, because I remember hearing it again on the way to Norfolk. I don't remember the trip back from Norfolk to Lincoln... I just remember the trip up there. It was not exactly pleasant, but considering all the stuff we have to pack nowadays for kids, it wasn't that bad. (Of course, I don't have a ton of equipment on my lap and poking me in the back and all around my legs, etc., but still... it still seemed quicker, to me, packing and unpacking all that stuff, versus packing stuff for our kids!)
That's all--no pix this time, just a goofy post. C'ya! -t
Monday, June 18, 2007
Can't Get You Outa My Head
Josie's chin and neck.
The Play-Doh tub.
Magic marker tower (with the top of Lindsay's head... for perspective?).
Some of the pictures they have taken in the past are actually quite good, I think, as far as being creative, etc. It's just the weeding out process that's a little tedious.
I can't sign off without adding a few nice ones of my babes, though. (The ones of the girls are self portraits.)
Lindsay's Self Portrait.
Josie's self portrait--there were actually a few that were cooler, but this was the only one of her smiling.
Donovan says, "Mommy, come over here--see, I saved you a seat!"
Thursday, June 07, 2007
Playing catch-up!
First is Bunko. (I really prefer to spell it B-U-N-C-O, but everyone else I know writes it B-U-N-K-O, so I'm going for consistency.... not like it matters.) I absolutely LOVE playing Bunko. I may have mentioned that in a previous blog entry--not sure. The time before last (this would have been the April game), our hostess decided to go with a Luau theme. It was such a riot! She was brilliant about it, too, because she even took pictures. I was especially excited, because I got my sister-in-law, Anne, to come join me as a sub, and she even won a little $$$ that night!!! We had such a great time!
Anita after getting BUNKO!
The money coral.
Vicki's hula dance. (Are those coconuts a bra? Or shoulder pads?)
Trish doing the hula. (Notice how well the coconuts fit her!)
The following month, May, I got two BUNKO's in a row, followed immediately by a Baby BUNKO. I was so pumped, I about jumped off my chair! Can't wait to roll 'em again!!!
The other thing I wanted to mention was Lindsay's Brownie Tea Party. Her Brownie Leaders, bless their hearts, came up with the coolest activities for their troop this year. I should know--I was a troop leader last year! It's tough, not just spending an hour and a half with 11 or so screaming, giggling girls, but also coming up with new and exciting ways to entertain them while earning Try-It patches. Anyway, to celebrate their great year and to hold an awards ceremony, Marcy and Karla (the leaders) came up with the idea of an old fashioned Tea Party. Mothers and grandmothers of the Brownies were invited. Both my Mom and Jim's Mom came, which was so nice. A few of us wore hats, and we were all dressed up prettily. I even saw one woman wearing gloves. (Die hard Tea Partier!!!) At the Tea Party, we all got to do a craft, along with chatting it up with our table-mates, taking a few pictures, and watching the awards ceremony. I think both of Lindsay's grandmothers enjoyed themselves--I surely did!
Isn't she lovely?
Donna, Tracy, Lindsay, and Kay.
We had a great Mother-Daughter day! Thanks, Lindsay!
Saturday, May 12, 2007
Perfume
Monday, May 07, 2007
Concerts
1) RATT, Poison- Omaha
Thursday, May 03, 2007
Another bunch of fun mail!
Here's a book Bridget had said she'd pass on to me. I know I'll see her Saturday when she's in town for the marathon, but I'm thinking she sent it in the mail simply because she's got a great appreciation for fun mail--and I'm still riding off the high I got from the last fun mail she sent me! **First one who posts a comment or e-mails me that they'd like to read it after me, it's yours!**
The book Bridget sent will fit right in with what I've been reading lately. For Christmas, Jim got me a Chick Lit desk calender--it's got excerpts from all these fun chick lit books (an example is the one sampled for today, "What a Girl Wants"). It's one of the best Christmas gifts I have ever gotten! I've been checking a bunch of these books out from the library, though my library doesn't carry them all. The book Bridget sent me isn't one of the books they profile in this calendar, so it's a bonus--plus, it arrived just as I'm about to finish my current book. Thanks, Bridget!!!
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Benefit for Don Sohl
Max Carl with Brad.